"Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored"
Aldous Huxley

Fact # 1 - I am slowly going bankrupt.
All those treatments (spa, massages, hair treatment, waxing, body scrub) and out of town trips are not cheap. Yet I still indulge in them and charging everything to my credit card.

Fact # 2 - I need a new cellphone.
Especially in times when my obsolete Nokia 3330 cronks out on me. There I was roaming around Greenbelt mall and I only realized my cellphone was dead when I was going to text my sister. I wanted to ask her if we were going for the 6:30 or the 8:30 pm showing of "Sideways", last night. And no matter what I did, it won't switch on again. But I think it is an unnecessary expense and just keep hoping my cellphone 'behaves' and doesn't act up.

Fact # 3 - E & I can NEVER be together.
This is a fact though which I am not ignoring. Sadly it's something I am dealing with, RIGHT NOW. I am giving up. My frustrations got the better of me. I have to face the truth and accept reality. It is not meant to be and it is for the best that I let go and move on.

How can I not love you?
cannot touch
cannot hold
cannot be together
cannot love
cannot kiss
cannot have each other
must be strong
and we must let go
cannot say what our hearts must know
how can I not love you

what do I tell my heart
when do I not want you
here in my arms
how does one waltz away from all of the memories
how do I not miss you when you're gone

cannot dream
cannot share
sweet and tender moments
cannot feel how we feel
must pretend it's over
must be brave and we must go on
must not say what we've known all along
how can I not love you

how can I not love you
must be brave and we must be strong
cannot say what we've known all along
how can I not love you
what do I tell my heart
when do I not want you here in my arms
how does one waltz away from all of the memories
how do I not miss you when you are gone
how can I not love you...When you are gone?