Therapy
Nothing dissipates my anger, depression or melancholy better than playing with html codes.
Yes I know - Major geek alert!!!
Tweaking. Tinkering. Changing. Customizing.
Adjusting fonts, colors and background images.
Preview. Readjust. Voila new template.
Still with the butterflies a flutter theme.
My favorite color BLUE.
Me entirely focused while listening to Bo Bice (with Ritchie Sambora) singing "Vehicle" at the top of his voice.

I'm your vehicle woman
But I'm not sure you know
That I love ya
I need ya
I want ya
Got to have you child
Great God in heaven you know I love you

I took a short break to chat with ER on Mirc. I find out he has decided to stay another year in Tokyo, instead of going back to Paris. So he is hunting for a cheaper apartment. I suggested they (he & his girlfriend) just move in together, less expenses, share rent etc etc. I'm glad he finally made a decision and we will still be in the same time zone. Besides since Paris lost the bid to host the 2012 Olympics - my plan to stay in his apartment simply faded away like most of my dreams! Typically true, as usual! Ugh!

Anyways I'm off to have my only meal today - Dinner.
Enough geeky stuff! =)

Dis moi pourquoi?
Alright I'm in a bad mood so allow me to just lash out. Isn't that what blogs are for? An outlet to air out our grievances!
Anyways, I was going to gripe about something.

But.

How can I rant about the 'unexplainable'?
Why is the sky blue?
Why does it rain (sometimes) when the sun is shining?
Why do people just stop communicating?

Endless speculations.
Was it something I said?
Was it something I didn't say?
Did I reveal too much?
Open ended questions.
Never to be answered.

A friend told me - "Everything happens for a reason".
I saw the movie "Wicker Park" last weekend. It does affirm the above statement. In the film, the woman in the lead character's life suddenly just 'vanishes' for no apparent reason. Later on, we figure out the scenario which led to the abandonment. 2 years later they end up with each other so a happy ending.
Yes surely I know it is only a freaking movie.

My point is YES ... There was ...
A reason why 'a certain someone' disappeared from my life.
A reason why 'another someone' stopped emailing me.
A reason why 'somebody' didn't show up for our blind date.
A reason why 'yet another somebody' ended our correspondence.

But tell me why do I feel so rejected?

This pattern of "non closure" makes me wish eternally for peace of mind. I hope it is within my grasp. Only time will tell if I can truly reach my goal. My aim to be completely detached and comfortably numb.
The art of stoicism, I so long for.

Because.

Je Ne Suis Que Moi
Je suis humaine, j'ai mes problemes
Et aussi mes desirs
Comment je pourrais parvenir
A t'expliquer mes raisons
Mais je suis humaine, pas magicienne
Est-ce que tu comprends ca ?
Je ne suis que ... je ne suis que moi
Est-ce que tu comprends ca?

Personality Test
Here's something about me. Quite accurate too except I'm not dependable nor popular.

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

By golly - totally senseless!
Those series of bombs that rocked London is proof that certain sectors in society do not value human life anymore.
My heart goes out to the victims of this tragedy and hope that London recovers because a vibrant city cannot be silenced. Especially since they won the bid to host the 2012 Olympic games.

Well I don't have to go very far do I?
Our beloved nation itself is besieged with total anarchy. The current farce at the Congressional hearings - grandstanding representatives, bad sound system, the tapes are inaudible - total drag!

Now calls - left, right & center for Pres. Arroyo to resign.
The Liberal Party.
Makati Business Club.
Former President Cory Aquino.
A mutiny from certain members of her own Cabinet.
The leftist.
The academe.
The rightist.
Retired generals.

Rallies here, there and everywhere.
So easy to simply destabilize the nation isn't it?
Edsa 3, 4, 5 and so forth.

How can we ever progress if every time we see a loophole within any administration - we rally to bring it down.
And all these for what?
For the Filipino people?
Gosh!

Who will lead us?
Noli de Castro - ewwww
Susan Roces - another ewwww
(Ret) General Abat - even louder ewwwww


WHO????

God have mercy on us all.
The Filipino people and our beleaguered nation!

What a difference a week makes!
Last week (June 30) at around 2:45 pm, my sister and I checked into Room 735 at the Westin Plaza. The view from our balcony - the imposing Film Center of the Philippines.




To our right - far ahead is the soon to open (Dec. 2005) Mall of Asia to be operated by the owners of the SM chain of malls.



To our left - the World Trade Center, exhibition halls.



I then took a refreshing bath in the bathtub - with warm, tepid water gently caressing my body for about 1 hour, lying supine while reading a book. We went down to explore the facilities at around 5pm. Most of the hotel premises is undergoing renovation. But the outdoor area where the swimming pool, the mini golf range and 2 of their restaurants are located is accessible.





Then at 6pm - it was time to go to the Sports Club & Spa located at the basement area. We booked for an aromatherapy massage. It basically restores the sense of well being by diffusing the aromatic scent of therapeutic oils derived from flowers, herbs and spices. So for 90 minutes, I was transported to a world of utter calm (except for the Thai inspired music) while the masseuse kneaded, rubbed, pressed her palms on pressure points on my entire body. Now I have to admit, I don't like massages for the main reason that I am not comfortable having my body 'roughed up'. Instead of relaxing, my back gets all knotted up. So she told me to stop resisting. After a few tense minutes, I succumbed and simply melted away. I most especially like the part where she worked on my feet and massaged my toes. As well as the head and scalp massage. I almost fell asleep there on the bed if it weren't for the music and the fact that I was totally naked.

Anyways it was almost 8pm when we finished - we both felt like a noodle barely able to trod back to our rooms. So we decided to order room service and pig out. We feasted on cream of peas with mint soup, seafood kare kare, pita bread lamb burger with French fries, peppered sirloin steak with veggies & potato wedges & 1 plain rice.




Completely full, our bodies still glistening with oil and extremely relaxed, we plopped into bed and watched TV. Shortly there after fell asleep - it was only 10:30 pm.






The next day (July 1, Friday)
I woke up early refreshed from a really good sleep despite the fact that the hotel pillows were too soft. I took my bath - taking full advantage of the hot water and the bathtub. Carefully washing the oil off my hair and my body, soaking in the warmth and steaming up the bathroom. Then it was time for breakfast at the Cafe Plaza. Full buffet spread consisting of the usual Continental breakfast fare. We had a heavy and hearty breakfast to last us till check out time - 12 noon.



One last photo opportunity. =)

Time to update
But frankly I got nothing to say!
Except I've been in a melancholic mood.
Perhaps listening to French love songs doesn't help.
Perhaps it's PMS.
Perhaps my mind is going to explode from work.
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps!

Who knows?

Actually I do know the reason.
But never mind.

I'll just share a joke from the Reader's Digest list of their 50 best ever jokes:

Doctor: "Did you take my advice about your insomnia and count before going to sleep?"
Patient: "Yes. I got as far as 24,534 and then it was time to get up."

Polaroid it!
This is cool, try it! =)

I'm back!
I had a great time relaxing. I will surely blog about it some time next week. For now I need to do some WORK!
Times are hard especially with all these troubles over the wire tapping conversations, the call for President Arroyo to resign, the weakening Peso and most of all the implementation of the e-VAT law
(currently under TRO from the Supreme Court but still!)
I need to work doubly hard to afford my indulgences now. Gosh!
I leave you with this image of my room key at the Westin - Room 735! I wish the guy on the card was indeed in my heavenly bed but alas he is merely a model! Teehee =)